Saturday, October 26, 2013

28_My way back to the village: from peace to trouble to home

After 5 hours of sitting in the 4x4 jeep on the most uncomfortable seats squeezed between my things, people, a random stool and a wheel I saw my known rock (a landmark) and all my tiredness went away. I was ready to jump out from the vehicle. We are approaching MY VILLAGE!

But before that…. There was a long journey.
It has started 1,5 years ago when I dared to begin my PhD research about Far Eastern rural Nepal. It continued with my stay in 2 villages for 4-5 months (in total I was in Nepal for 7 months). Six months later I came back to return to my villages.
Even though I speak a bit of Nepali language it is not nearly as good as it should be and therefore I am going now with my assistant Anima who will help with translation and research.


I Getting peace at Bouddhanath

In general Nepal makes me super-mobile once I get out from the Tribhuvan airport. I have changed so many houses, hotels, districts and even rooms of hotels. Also this time I have decided to experience different are of Kathmandu-around Bouddhanath (previously I lived around Thamel and in different parts of Patan). Bouddhanath is the complex of Buddhist monasteries with the central stupa, which is believed to be the most important place for Buddhists in Nepal. It is located quite far from the city, but I was stubborn in my wish. And I never regretted that.
This place is truly magic, where it seems that modernity, 21st century, money obsession and time compression has never came. Especially during Dashain period (when all Nepali are going home to villages to get blessing from elders of the family; and thus city feels empty). My hotel window faced the monastery with purely white doves. Every morning before 6 a.m. monks started chanting and this chanting mood would not stop during the day. Everywhere I went it seemed that people are only concerned about their own spirituality than anything else and therefore in shops and restaurants people always had malas in their hands and did not bother about me as a customer. No bargaining or offers for me to buy things I do not need, so typical for other parts of Kathmandu. Most of the women were wearing their traditional dresses and whenever I went outside my hotel I entered a stream of monks and others walking around stupa in clockwise direction. I could spend hours observing that. The air was full of religiously spirituality or “Love-Peace-Happiness” as Buddhists usually say. In fact, despite that so many things did not work, I could not be upset for a long time, it was simply impossible there. That was Kathmandu I did not know before. I experienced only loud, polluted, crazy place where I was afraid to be a pedestrian and a bicycle rider, because of the unorganized dangerous traffic, out of which my head was ready to blow out. Here it was peace.
Here just like in Himalayas I became different, Nepali version of me: easy going, friendly, opened, making friends and feelings lives of everyone I meet.

II A long and troublesome journey

I thought I got this peace forever, but I was mistaken, peace did not belong to me, it belonged to the place. Thus, when I packed my all belonging and ordered a taxi to the domestic airport I already could not accept the taxi driver to be 30 minutes late before my flight (when the journey itself is maximum 20 minutes). That’s good that I calculated time well in advance!
We landed in Jhapa, which resembled at that time Africa-so hot! In general our journey was supposed to be long: from Jhapa to Ilam, where we thought to stay for a day, later to go directly to Falaichha or to have two buses in one day, as I used to do before. But this time absolutely nothing worked after I reached Ilam.
Usually I adore Ilam. It is a small peaceful city in hills with smiling people and huge plantations of tea bushes. There is this special atmosphere of people plucking tea leaves and people having long walks on paths in tea gardens. There are very few places in Nepal, which would fulfil so well a function of social gathering and relaxation for all generations and backgrounds.
This time all went wrong. Already on the way together with Anima we could barely survive famous 12 turns before the city and our stomachs were ready to explode. Once we approached Ilam we could not find a sleeping place for a long time due to festivals and those available were worse of each other. Finally I made my wrong decision towards a hotel with giggling teenage boys and a dirty bathroom. I thought I can cope with everything: mice in hotels and houses do not bother me if I secure my food, I sweep of cockroaches from tables and take out hairs, stones, hash and insects from food easily. To spiders I even do not give any attention at all.
But this!!!
When I opened my bathroom kit in the evening in the bathroom I saw that awful creature moving its longs nose around. That was the first time I screamed seeing something usually people are afraid of. But this thing was sooo huge! I ran out from the bathroom scared to see it again. Luckily I had a strong insecticide spray and I attacked all those creatures in the bathroom not caring that I poison myself for a night sleep as well. That made them run, which was even worse.
That night I could sleep only with mosquito net over my face, and yes, I slept in my sleeping bag in the hotel. Also because they did not have bed sheets and I did not believe that they washed duvets more than once in 6 months.
Getting a ticket to our further destination was also an enormous task. Since elections for Constituent Assembly are approaching and that is a very decisive moment in development of Nepal, everyone was very excited about that. That also meant that they did not want to bother about doing their jobs and selling tickets. Thus we were redirected from one place to another and at last we needed to walk for 2 km up the hill to find out that the ticket counter guys just wanted to get rid of us.
!!!
But at last we got a ticket at least to Phidim for the next day (which is located 3 hours distance). Our jeep was at 5-6 o’clock (the time is always given like this, meaning you need to be there at 5, but they might move are 7 or 8. Or 5. Depends on the mood). In the evening I made sure that in my hotel they knew that I have an early time for bus and they open the door for me on time.
They didn’t.
At 5 a.m. sharp I was screaming and hitting my metal door, which was locked straight at the beginning of stairs leading to rooms. Not even hotel entrance door, people were locked on their floors. I waited for 45 minutes. Within this time I was screaming, I was running to balconies shouting at walking people for help, and above all-I was hitting metal door with all my strength for many minutes. No reaction. In fact, you can get a heart attack in your hotel between 10 and 6 and you will be isolated from help.
In this period Anima was sitting on the stone close to my hotel door. For one hour in cold.
Of course, we missed our bus.
Eeeeeeh, with the second transport we managed to reach Phidim at last, but we could not move further, because due to elections people of parties booked most of the vehicles and therefore only few of them were operating. We needed to wait for one more day. And even for that next day we managed to get the worst possible seats and the only calming thought was that we are both slim and Anima is especially a very petit lady, which meant we can manage. We were still pressing each other, hitting out buts and sides on metal on the bumpy road, but I don’t want to imagine sitting next to an average man.

But then it was there-Falaichha and end of our sufferings.

III Finally

When first houses appeared on my way I could see known faces, people were happy to see me and asked to come to their houses and when we rolled out of our jeep I was back at home. I knew almost everyone and I was surprised with new shops on the road. I saw 6-month old baby, whose mother I saw pregnant on last month just when I left the village. I met people, who were previously absent, but they heard about me. I went to my favourite house and they gave us a seat, a room and food immediately. Everyone was so happy to see me and I was so happy to see them. Everyone spoke to me Nepali. Nothing comparing to my first visit to this village, where all the important people gathered around me with suspicion asking why did I come. I was a circus animal for them and every move of mine was scrutinised and re-talked.
Now I was at home. Home among deep forests, golden crops, hills and fresh air possible only if you are at the place of mountains and no vehicles.
Breathing deeply and getting excited to go further and to see others J


Friday, October 4, 2013

27_To be where you are_preparing for the second fieldwork

Yes, I continue my blog. It is just a week left before I return to Nepal to do my second field work as a human geographer. But again this blog has nothing to do with science. However, it has a lot to do with ups and downs, failures and discoveries.


Rain. This autumn was exceptionally good for usually quiet disgustingly humid, rainy and windy Scandinavian fall. Every day has been sunny, getting colder and colder, but still has been marked by low clouds playing with different colours and tones, and by soft sunlight, which always makes faces beautiful and landscapes so warm and soft, just like grandmothers hands. Although I miss the golden autumn of Latvia. I never knew how unique and special it was. The sound of yellow, orange and red leaves under your feet.
It is raining after so many days of beautiful Danish weather. I am rushing home cycling without lights despite the darkness and screwing up my eyes to avoid the big rain drops.
And I start laughing. I suddenly feel the rain drops so vividly, each of them going through clothes and reaching my skin. Falling on the ground. It’s almost surrealistic. How much I enjoy my rush home, all the people here and there, people talking despite the rain, and coming Danish darkness and cozy winter. I enjoy it up to the point it hurts. I want to fall on the ground, to hold my breath and just be here. Right here and right now.
I wrote this phrase half a year ago when I was in the middle of my fieldwork, going up the mountain and looking down to houses of my village which already looked so small. They resembled the view I usually see from the window of the plane moving my head impatiently for landing to finish sooner. They resembled me coming back home.
At that moment, being at almost 2000 m, I wanted to scream and cry, but instead I just turned my head and talked about the upcoming wedding of a local. In this locked status I did not want my tears to come, because I knew they will not stop. I could not continue intervieweing for that day, put the music in my ears and fall into memories of my home, but instead I chose to go deep into my sadness, to the core of it. To feel every single step I make and to let the surrounding flow into me, just like I was empty and shapeless. Just to be there.

Right here and right now.
I’m just a week before going to my field again.
So much work has left to do before that and I cannot see the end of it.

During the weekend I will probably bake apple bread.